All the dudes that came by your life and all the nights that you cried,
Gerl I was there right by your side...
How could I tell you I love you when you are so happy with some other guy...
Now I realize you were the only one, it’s never too late to show it...
I pray for all your love, Gerl our love is so unreal,
I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you..
Somebody pinch me, I must be dreaming...
This is something like a movie and I don’t know how it ends, Gerl
But I fell in love with my best friend...

我以为找一个思想成熟的女孩，路也就能走得更远

A relationship started out sweet like honey
All those fantasy, dreams and hope
Were plans for the future of a young couple
Years went by, bound to be up and down times
They were more sure of dreams becoming reality
Proposing and wedding plans were made
And then that fateful day came
One regretted, the another went shattered
All those years of hopes and dreams
Turned out to be nothing but nightmares
Both went their separate ways
In search of another victim to torment them
What they had being through with all those dreams
That turned out to be nightmares
That's how scary a shattered heart can be
I have just experienced it, have you?

The End.

喂！小傻瓜！不要怀疑，就是在叫你！
你已经不需要我了，不是吗？
其实一直以来都是我需要你不是吗。。。
一直以来，你早就走出我的生命
只有我一直在原地踏步。。。
天真地以为你还是爱我的。。。
上天真的很不公平。。。
给我一次爱你的机会。。。
但我还没来得及珍惜。。。
祂就把机会给抢走了。。。
记得宝贝，你一定要幸福。。。
不要再招惹别人哭。。。
也不可以一直再任性了。。。
所有的错误就从我这里落幕吧。。。
纯粹的孤独就让我承受吧。。。

Watching my meaningless life goes by...
Memories are getting frozen as time goes by...
The world is no longer colorful...
Empty room is getting so deafening...
The silence makes me wanna scream...
Its driving me crazy...
I think I'm going outta my mind...
I'm dying inside little by little...
Running an endless circle...
I'm broken... slowly fading outta this world...
Baby, how could we quit something that
We never even tried before...
Even up till now I know you still can't tell me why...
Remember how we built this relationship up...
To how we stood there watching it fall to pieces...
Like we meant nothing at all to you...
I gave and gave the best of me...
But couldn't gave you what you need...
You took my heart and walked away...
Just to find what you're really looking for...
I'm not like some that gains attention by claiming to die...
Perhaps ending my life silently, nobody even knows...
I'm half the man I thought I would be...
But who knows... what left inside of me....

When I close my eyes I think of you and the times we've had been through
Even though we're far apart right now. I remember back when you were here with me
How you made my world complete but now I'm left alone...
We talked about love and hope, wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you, why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start, all those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you... I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do.... Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies...

BB, 你好吗？今天是我们失去联络的第一天。
好多次都有一股冲动想发短讯给你，但我没做到。
因为我知道在你心里面从来就没有我的存在。
想起你每次不会读我的华文字就好笑。
虽然不再知道你会不会来读，
但是我会天天用华文字来写喔，有可能能让你的华文有进步 leh!
明天晚上有 gate duty, 真不想去。。。
在那个 guard house 能睡去睡不了因为不能脱 boots，
在外面 gate duty, 想睡却不能睡，真够欠扁！
对不起BB，今天没听你的话，我又没吃了。。。
但我知道没有了我，你还是会过得很好 =]
我想我只能慢慢地学习不要一直依赖着你，
因为我不知道下一辈子还是否能再遇见你，
所以一直以来我都想把最好的给你，做一个好男朋友，
没想到爱你变成伤害了你，我们的爱让你快窒息。
对不起BB，不是故意，只是我太爱你。。。

U said u don't have time to accompany me eat sushi
But now u got time to go out with friends?
Thanks for letting me know I'm NOTHING to u
Really thanks Chunye.

我想念牵着你的手的感觉
想念亲你那有烟味的嘴
想念作弄你的快乐感

安心的睡吧我的宝贝
我会一直想着你。。。
晚安。。。

Today should be a good day I guess?
Watched 2359 with BB...
That's the only time she held my hand...
I wasn't really focusing on the movie...
All my attention was on her honestly...
Although we only spent a little time together...
But still is the most beautiful moment in the week...

Another hope gone in a dash
All I wanted was a movie tomorrow
I guess this simple wish I can't even have
I guess the pain on my fist is not that painful after all

This is my life
Morning head out to camp
Evening go back home
Weekend rot at home
This my boring life...

Today's not my day
Late dismissal
Unable to meet up
Hais
I guess my prayers were unheard.

Tomorrow should be the day I'm looking forward to
Early dismissal, able to meet my gerl..
What can be more happier than that?
However... so much things can happened within days
And now... there's no more for me to look forward
I suddenly felt very pathetic
Lost a girlf and I have no one to go out with.. Hais

Will any miracles happen tomorrow?
11:11 I'm still halfway planning your 21 bdae... Hais