Worries is all I had in mind
Worried about her illness
Worried about her home-sick
Worried about her financial status
Worried whether she's eating enough
Worried whether I'm giving enough
It has never being in my mind
The thought of whether
Is she even worried about herself
In the first place?
Sick yet she never wanna
Stick at home and rest
Broke yet she can afford to cab
Eating all those unhealthy stuff
Is just like inviting sickness
For a long term stay
Promise she did, but never done
Where's the blog post, honey?
If you have time to be late
Where's the simple thing that you say you do
Scrolling down my wall and her wall
What a great difference...
Her wall is like flooded with me
Busy announcing to the world
How much I love her...
And my wall... it's empty
Is she still the girl
That claims who wanted me?
Since when did everything became
Such one sided?
Or is there "everything" in
The first place?
Or "everything" was just illusion..
I posted on my wall
"I realize she had never post anything
on my wall before...
as I scroll down and see...
It was all just me... just me only..."
Immediately, friends came liking it
What's the point of liking it
When all I need was really just
Somebody... to even just lend me
A shoulder to lean on..
I thought I had you, you were
My everything.. but
I realized... "Did i really had you?"
Why is the things that I see
And the things that you said
Had such a great significance difference?
I realize I had no one around...
I'm still the pathetic guy that everyone knows
While typing, my "BURST" mode was on
Choking on tears was really damn hurtful
But nothing beats the pain of
Heart shattering with disappointment
Knowing that all my worries
Are just waste of time
I guess to her, I'm just being
Unreasonable... Can I just
Be unreasonable and ignore the fact
That... I got nothing at all?
Not in my wall... Not in my eyes...
Not in the heart that loves you
More than the guy that you lied to me for...

a[MONKEY]&one[PIG]LoveStory™

P.s
Thank you for all the memories..